I am sorry...

I have been away from you both for almost 2 months..and truly miss u all very much and very dearly...Just few days back on Ashely's birthday, I called Ash and when you picked up, I sang you a birthday song and then, you thank me with your usual sweet voice...Later, Ash you told me that Areunaa bought you a megaphone which you like but not later Areunaa, you made Ashley cried and when I spoke to you, you got upset and was upset for a long time even after I chatted with mommy. Then when I spoke to you again, I got to upset that I hung up the phone.

I felt so bad and tried to ask mommy to talk to you but as usual, I could not reach mommy...and I got so angry with mommy.

At this moment, daddy felt a great sense of lost cos, as I am far away and often misses you all, I tried very hard to talk to you all by even getting you both phone or so, but, you both somehow, do not pick up the phone and mommy too..So, I find it hard to contact you all which upset me very much...then...

These few days have been very tough for me as someone upset me so much to the point that even as I write to you both now, I am in tears...cos I love her dearly and she became rebellious and betrayed my trust...I know betrayal as I have been going through that alot and the path is so difficult and tough..it is just so painful..I pray that you both do not have to go through this...cos, the pain is excrutiating. I am in tears...

Ashley - when mommy was sick...

Mommy told me that yesterday when we were doing some stuff, u suddenly went to her and said "wait, let me see what else I can do for mommy?" You then went to the kitchen and look at the fridge over what you wrote and you poured water for mommy. And this is what you wrote on the fridge...

To Areunaa

En, you are so funny, you actually made a coupon for mommy and me...the coupon started with 1 free car wash..(hmm, who is washing it anyway?) 1 free polish for anything, i free dish washing?!?! 1 free TV dusting (what is that?), 1 free foot massage, 1 free massage, 1 free massgae ( 2 already) and 3 no. of 1 free anything you want. Ha ha, you are so cute...:) You just makes me laugh. So proud of you both...:)

To Ash

Was talking to you the other day and was telling you how proud I am of you and how I love you dearly. You then started tearing and when I ask why, you said "Daddy, your voice makes me cry." I think, what you wanted to say was, my words really touched your heart but you do not know how to express it. You know, it is so true Daddy is always proud of you two (and Areunaa ofcourse) Of all the things I ever done, you two are my greatest success.

Looking and how heart-warming you both can be and how you would often say things that bring great comfort. Just last night, you deliberately call me from granny house just to tell me that Heros is on TV. When I asked you who ask you to tell me, you just said you wanna let me know. You are always so sweet. I also remember how you would often choose to stay behind to company mommy just because I bring Areunaa out. That is so sweet of you.

Mommy also said that the other night, you were tired and you wanted massage, and you wish you also have the coupon (the one Areunaa did for mommy and me). Ash, you don't need coupon for Daddy and Mommy to massage you, pamper you and love you...:)

Wouldn't daddy get out of debt?

My dearest Areunaa, mommy was telling me last night when I called her and chatted with her how when you were somewhat involved in a lucky draw in one of your purchase or so, she then mentioned that, if she win the S$30'000 prize, I would be out of debt, isn't it? When I herd that, I had tears in my eyes...thank you for your love for daddy...I love you deeply...you are such a darling...:)

Ashley's word

Hi darling, mommy just told me what you just said to her few days back. You said that you are not gonna wahs your baby's bottom and that you will ask your husband to do it. Cos, you are the one giving birth and your husband got nothing to do, so ask him to wash lor. Ha ha...u r so funny, I mean, you are so young and yet you think of such stuff already..

Well, I am writing this in the middle of the night at about 3am in New Zealand. I really misses you gals very much.

Few weeks, before I left for New Zealand, I gave Areunaa a very heavy spanking because she showed black face to mommy. Somehow, I know Areunaa do not like to study but nonetheless, daddy do not like you to behave this way, at least not to be rude to mommy. Honestly, to see you cry because of my beating, pains me a great deal and during the night when I look at your wounds while you were sleeping, I cried and even the though of it nows, makes me feel bad. I love you very much and would never wanna bring pain, not a single beat to you...just concern over your study, my dear Areunaa

Ashley's performance items - Tomorrow

so cool...this was film by Areunaa for her little sister. Areunaa is now a movie director where Ashley is now a Singer!!